Aspirations

Aspirations: a strong desire to achieve something high or great.

As odd as it may seem, I have found a song, that resembles my life right now.

Learning to Live by Beth Hart.

Each word in the lyrics to this song captivate my life right now. I have changed what I am attending school for. I think I have made a perfect choice for me. This is where I NEED to be in life. I am going for my Bachelors in Human Services and Management. Which in titles me to become a Social Worker. This is where my heart is, this is where I need to be. This will open me to a whole world of what I can do. Areas of work for me, that touch my life in many different personal levels. I will have the choice to work with people struggling with Addictions, Mental Illnesses, working in Nursing Homes and Hospice centers, as well as working with kids. There is a wide array of fields I can enter into with this degree, that have touched my life in some way or another..This is where I need to be...This is where I want to be...This is where I will be able to look back at my life, when I am at the end of my road, and be happy with what I have chose for my life. I begin my classes in a little less that a week. I am nervous. I am ecstatic. I am stressed. I am confident. I just want this to begin. I want to start my journey. I have my big girl pants on, and I am going to jump in and run with the winds..

Over this last weekend Ryan and I took Tyler to a park in Redmond, that is just amazing. There's no other words for this park. It was a 64 acre park. There was a dog park, gardening area, R/C airplane area, tennis courts, basketball, soccer, Croquet, kids area, a Subway. You name it, and it was there. We had a great time there. There was a high school baseball game being played on one of the fields, that we indulged into for awhile. We enjoyed watching them play..I also purchased through Craigslist a jogging stroller. I am ready to lose the rest of this flab. I can't believe how long it has stuck around, and how long it has taken me to lose it. I was doing fantastic with eating better, and monitoring what I eat, as well as how much. In the last couple of weeks I have fallen off the bandwagon, and I am ready to jump back on. With the Spring weather here, I have NO excuse not to get out and get my big ol' butt in shape...So my goal to achieve here within the next week to 2 weeks, is I have to purchase a few things:

1. New earphones for my iphone/ipod. The ones Apple gives you, are a joke.
2. New workout pants, the ones I have now, are waaaay too big for me..I guess that's a good thing, to some..but for me, not good enough!!
3. Arm band to put my iphone/ipod into while I am jogging.

Then I will be off...ready to run...and I feel it, that I am ready..So let's do this, let's bring it on. I need to lose these last remaining pounds. I weighed myself yesterday, and I'm weighing in at 123pounds. Although I think I have about 85 of those pounds in my stomach. Ugh. Ick. Grrrr..Why is it I have to carry my weight in the worst possibly spot. The hardest area to lose the weight. The most awkward place. Ohhh genetics, you just have to embrace them and take it as it is..I guess..I am ready though. Ready to run..well maybe not that much, but definitely ready to jog!! On April 11th, 2010. I will be participating the the Walk MS for Multiple Sclerosis. I will be walking with the team Moms with MS. I am very excited. I have never participated in such an event, and I look forward to this endeavor!!

I am on a recent journey within myself as well. I have came to an odd spot, and realizing I need to do some things for myself..I need to find myself. I need to break away from just being Mom, and find who I am..I am fighting learning about myself, and learning what I like, and things I want in my life. I am also on a journey to educate myself about different religions and different beliefs. I want to find what is right for me, and to have faith. I want to learn a hobby. I had the swift thought of making homemade cards. I am very interested in this, it's just getting the materials I will need to begin. I know Michaels always has great sales on scrapbooking materials, in fact the weekly ad for this week, has some fantastic deals. It's just making the time to get there..So I am working to 'find myself'...

I also am going through some 'drama' within myself currently..I am going to break away from somethings/some people in my life..I am going to work to build better relationships with some that I seem to neglect..The ones that are always there...nonjudgmental, supportive, and truly care from the bottom of their hearts..So wish me luck, as this is going to be difficult. I am going to hurt some, and hurt myself as I go through this. I am strong though. I have strength within me that will portray through the cracks with these steps..

As I approach a new road in life this next week, I am going to take on a lot more than just school. A step in life. Working for my future. Securing my future. Working on my health. Working on getting back in shape. Focusing on myself. Building confidence. Building my self-esteem. Most importantly being a Mom, being a Girlfriend, being a student, and being ME!

I make my departure from my chair today, to go through my day with the kiddos today. I will find 3 things today that I am grateful for. 3 things I loved about today. 3 things I am happy about. and 1 thing I disliked..I will reflect at the end of my day..Until then I must remove my bum from my chair, get me some more coffee, and get busy, busy, busy!!!

Good day to all whom walk across this blog today..